Yes, I am still alive...

but barely hanging on to my sanity I think. It has been a LONG time since I've posted anything; so much has changed

in October Dr K switched me to a new med, Namenda...as soon as the Lyrica left my system however my Migraines rebounded big time, and I spent the next 6 weeks in a haze of pain. I had truly forgotten how bad they were when not muted by the Lyrica. Needless to say I was put back on Lyrica, with the dosage increased (300 mg bid). I am still taking the Namenda, as it has helped with the side effects from the Lyrica (ie the blurry vision). The attacks are still as often, but they are just an echo of what they could be and the meds I take (Zomig or Migranal) are much more effective.

What a mess I am! 44 and taking a melange of anti-depressant, anti-psychotic, anti-convulsant (or whatever Lyrica is exactly) and to top it off a med to treat Alzheimer's. What fun. Obviously I need them, but I still don't have to like it. Thank God that I was able to get on disability though-as much as I hate feeling like a leech (on both the government and hubby) I have no other way to pay for the $1000 worth of meds I get every month. And no, this really isn't a complaint-I have friends who have much worse going on in their lives; this is just me venting my frustration.

And speaking of frustration. Dear hubby is quitting his job. Yes, you heard right; the job that he really, REALLY liked and was very good at. There are certain problems, which could possibly be worked out but at this point it looks like next Friday will be his last day. Somehow I was not surprised-this has been a pattern of his over the years. We just get going along really well and BOOM! It has been two years since the last job ended (2 months after we closed on our house) We went through a painful bankruptcy and are finally back on our feet, and now this. I love the man, I really do; but there are times I could cheerfully strangle him and I have been keeping that urge in check for some time now. Honestly, it wouldn't be so bad-I want him to have a job he's happy with- but we are commited to certain obligations in 2008 that require traveling and time off from work, plus cash of course. And face it-I liked being able to pay the bills, more or less on time.

I am really hoping I can look back on this in a few months time and wonder why I made such a fuss about it...

if nothing else comes of our lives we made a couple of wonderful kids, so I guess it was worth it

Lynne