Out of My Head

it's all good...

this has been my "mantra" recently. In between bouts of migraine I have really tried to take stock of things. Everything else in my life is peachy-so I can deal with the migraines.

We made a quick trip to Iowa to deliver some rabbits this evening. The weather was mild and the scenery pretty (well, for Iowa). Anyway, I was thinking about all those things that we didn't do with our kids; whether due to my illness or to lack of funds and you know what?  They turned out just fine! Probably even better than a lot of those kids that got all those designer clothes and new cars. I worried so much about not being there for them because of my migraines and here they went ahead and grew into self sufficient, hard working people.

Life is good...it's ALL good!

And here's a shout out to Noelle-(if you've read this far)

ugh...

still not feeling all the best. I did manage to get a dog groomed this AM, there's another coming later but it's just a bath & brush. I've got a bunch of things to get ready for the rabbit show this weekend...even if I don't go there are several things I need to get done for it. Sometimes life really sucks doesn't it when you can't even get up the energy to do even a few fun things? Oh well, it will either get done or not. Poor hubby will just have to take up the slack...AGAIN.   

*sigh* guess I need to get out of this mood and at least TRY to accomplish something :)

Last night...

I had an interesting experience. About 2 in the afternoon I developed a headache on the left side of my head. Normally I am a "right sided" migrainuer but occaisionally I will get one on the left. Not yesterday though-I was alert, not sensitive to light or felt any nausea but the pain just would not go away and was pretty severe. Finally about 8 pm I told hubby that I thought we should go to the ER. Knowing how much I don't like doctors in general and especially ER doctors he got me in the car and off we went. I have a pretty high pain threshold, so he knew I was in a bad way if I was willing to get help. Although there is a hospital where we live, we drove the 20 miles to the "better" one. While we were waiting to be seen Gale noticed that my left eye was bloodshot. It hadn't been earlier when he checked to see if I had "migraine eyes" My temp was normal and my BP was up (from the pain, I told the doc, and she agreed-I tend to tell my docs what's wrong with me-LOL) I was really lucky, the doctor on call last night was my GP so I had someone who was familiar with me and my "head problems"! (and asks how your kids are, and how things are going-thank God for small towns and the people in them!)

Anyway, I didn't have an aneurysm, or an impending stroke (which was on my mind-head pain that bad and that different scared me a little) She thinks I have an eye infection that was causing the pain and put me on Omnicef and eyedrops 3X per day and told me to take some of my vicoprofen. The head pain is still here, but my eye is clearer (it never hurt at all-so odd) Now if I can just force myself to use the eyedrops. Do you remember the "Friends" episode where Rachel had an eye infection and had to see the eye doctor? It ended up with everyone tackling her to give her the drops-that's kind of how I am-I HATE anything in my eyes (which is why I don't have contacts) and drops drive me nuts-I mean, it's not like I can close my eyes so I don't see them coming! This time isn't bad-I can handle 3 times a day. Once I had a viral eye infection, and I had to take two different drops-one 3x per day and the other 5x! But I got thru that-of course the threat of losing vision in an eye is a pretty convincing way to assure compliance!

Well, I've rambled on. I guess the point of this is if you are having headpain that is not your "normal" headpain go see your doctor. I was just glad mine was what it was, and not something more serious. But there is no way to know unless you go to the doctor!

Monday

well, here it is...the start of a new week. Today is an awesome day-the sun is shining (but not too brightly) the day is warm (but not too hot) the iris are blooming and the peonies have opened up. Actually I think they were blooming the other day, but since I've been in the house with a bad head ALL WEEKEND I didn't know it until today. Boy, that's sad...spring is gonna zip right by me-we're on the tail end of May already. I know it was a bad weekend because it was my birthday on Saturday and I didn't even eat any cake. Yep, I had to be in a bad way not to eat cake. And it wasn't just the birthday blues...I'm only about 20 or so in my head (I'm also 100 lbs thinner-no wonder I live in my mind most of the time) I think it was a combo of migraine and sinus-blechhh. Anyway, at this present moment I'm feeling pretty good. I have dogs lined up to groom most of the week and it looks like I will be getting more over the next month or so because another groomer is moving out of state. Just so long as I can do them-if I have to start rescheduling because of my head I'll end up guilting myself into a big hole. It's way too hard to climb out of that hole so I would just as soon not topple over the edge to begin with. I think I'm doing pretty good, although hubby asked me if I was taking my AD meds so maybe things are a bit out of whack. He means well; sometimes I would just decide to NOT take any meds so his asking isn't unusual and if nothing else means he's paying attention to me. Yeah, I DO need a keeper, so I'm glad he's willing to do the job :)

Well, I suppose I need to get a few things done-busy weekend coming up and I have a lot of things to do. I did stop to smell the flowers today though, in fact I brought some peonies in, ants and all! I hope everyone reading this takes a few moments to take a look around and appreciate the season!

whew!

Well, it's all over. My baby is a high school graduate! Now I can relax a little, at least until the 27th & 28th when we have a rabbit show! But it's all good :) I can't begin to say how blessed I feel that BOTH our kids have gotten thru school and adolescence and turned out to be pretty nice people. So many kids have emotional problems, problems with drugs and/or alcohol, or even physical problems. Even though things in our lives haven't always gone the way we wanted it to the important thing- our kids- has turned out very well. I'm not saying it was always easy, but we definately were blessed by God when it comes to our children.

I've been in a migraine most of today, but I finally took a vicoprofen so I could enjoy the evening with Gale & Dan. Yesterday was migraine free, so I am not complaining one little bit. I have a new client bringing her dog in tomorrow. I am trying not to stress about it. She was referred by another new client who was VERY particular, so I guess if I pleased her enough that she was telling other people about me I shouldn't have anything to worry about. You would think wouldn't you that after all these years of grooming, going to seminars and belonging to professional organizations I would have a little more confidence but I still struggle with self doubt. I ALWAYS find a tuft of hair that I missed, or a little poof that would look better with JUST a smidgen more off the top just as the owner is headed out the door. Oh well, I suppose it is a good thing that I seek perfection, as long as I don't obsess. (which I do)

Well, I am going to do another load of laundry, then watch a movie with my guys.

OK....

I know it's been ages since I posted. I am still in denial about our son's graduation-SATURDAY!!! To be fair, he's spent most of the last year and a half living away from home at our friend's house so he could finish out school where he has gone since kindergarten. It seems like he has already left home to me I guess. We are going in with 4 other families and renting a building in Syracuse. The other moms are handling the arrangements, so pretty much all I have to do is help set things up Saturday morning and write out a check. But I still have to put his "shrine" together. That is a big thing around here-you have to have pictures of the grad; clippings, awards and anything else you can think of to show how good your kid is, I guess. My graduation (eep-25 years ago!) my folks took me out to dinner after graduation-that was it. Oh yeah, and I had a migraine and threw up afterwards...ahhh, good times! Dan isn't as obsessive about this kind of stuff as his sister was, but I feel bad because, well, there just isn't as much stuff to put in his shrine because he isn't the over achiever type A personality as his sister is. And naturally, as the second child there aren't near as many pictures of him, but I guess that isn't unusual (hubby was the 3rd son, so he has about 4 baby pictures-maybe) And the vast majority of our kid pictures have them holding puppies, snakes or some other form of critter. Which is OK-I recently read an article in USA Today about how you are supposed to let kids be around animals and dirt at a young age, so they have fewer allergies when they are older. Needless to say none of us really have allergies - of course I have always believed kids should be allowed access to dirt and animals. I'm just glad for validation, because we have relatives that STILL won't visit us because we have animals (on hubby's side of course-my family is ALL perfectly normal-hah!)

I know, I am really rambling today. I woke with a migraine (no surprise there, I know) so I took a vicoprofen so that hopefully I can get a few things done today. I have a couple of dogs scheduled, but not until late this afternoon so I called and left a message to try and reschedule them. I am going to be a total wreck by then. I'm trying to save my tryptans for this weekend-I know, I should use them to try and stop this instead of using pain meds to cover it up. I just know I am going to really need them this weekend though

well, I guess I had better go get back to what I was doing-getting bunny pans done and cleaning the basement. I normally don't worry about cleaning house, but I have let things go for too long and even those of us well exposed to pet hair and dander are in danger from the dust rhinos (mostly cat hair rhinos)

Wish me luck getting through the weekend- my "baby" is graduating

and so...

life continues. I've had some bad days, but yesterday was a good day where I didn't need to take anything other than my daily meds. Hubby had the day off and he drug me out to get my hair cut, and I ended up getting it permed. I guess I needed my hair fixed to perk me up a little. I have been kind of down lately. We went out to lunch afterwards and it was very nice. In the evening we drove to Syracuse where Dan had his final band concert -I am SO glad to see the last of those horrid bleachers in the high school gym! Even I don't have enough padding to make those hard things bearable (well, I have enough padding, but it shifts off to the sides where it doesn't do me any good) Dan graduates on the 13th, and no, I am NOT ready.

I woke up this am with a migraine. I used my Zomig spray and went back to bed-I didn't wake up until NOON! ARG! I have been on the phone and computer most of the day (what was left of it anyway) but have gotten the bunnies taken care of and a few household chores done. I never get caught up though-I have learned to TRY not to worry about it. It will be there tomorrow :)