Just when I was pretending to be normal

I've been put on probation for work for excessive absences (for the record, I was absent 12 times in the last 12 months).  The punishment for this offense is probation, and the terms are this:  I can be absent twice in the next 6 months.  Great.  Just what a sicky needs. The whole concept of this is just counter-intuitive to me.  Well, in my meeting with the manager, I told her I honestly thought I couldn't live up to these terms (especially during cold and flu season, I work with newborns, I'm not supposed to come to work sick!).  I told her I would probably apply for intermittent FMLA, and she didn't seem pleased, but I have to keep this job.  The owners of the hospital have a monopoly, they own all the hospitals in a 3-county area.  If I lose my job at my current hospital, I'd have to really travel to work.  Anyway, I went to HR, and was made to feel like a lazy parasite sucking the blood out of society, but I do have the FMLA approved now.  Trouble is, I feel like the spotlight is on me, and that every absence will be scrutinized.  I know that they can't say anything to me if I miss for a migraine, but that won't stop them from thinking it.